What I Would Do

6 Sep

A couple of weeks ago, I spent an evening with a couple of good friends from college. We talked until five in the morning, slept for three hours, and then talked for three more. It was silly, great, fun. And also deep. It’s interesting to look at our sociologically similar and yet very different lives: we’re the same age, got married within four years of each other, live in the same geographic area, went to the same school and took many of the same classes. But we have very different lives: different religions, different professions, different types of marriages. This provides for differences of opinions and lots of opportunities for learning and teaching each other.

But why mention this as the first post on this blog in, oh, two and a half months? Because of a little question my friends asked me. They said: “If you didn’t have to work, what would you do?”

For some reason, I was struck dumb (and this is a rare thing for me). And then, the strangest thing poured out of my mouth. I said, “I would have a clean, organized, beautiful home. I would cook dinner every night. There would be a place for everything and everything in its place.” That’s all I could think of for several minutes. How, if I could stay home, I would. This summer has been so busy for both of us that our home, our sanctuary, had gotten disorganized and it was making me feel frantic.

My friends looked at me in shock. I felt shocked at myself. Look at me, abiding by traditional gender roles and stereotypes. So I tacked on, “…and I would paint. And knit. And sew.” And then we laughed and moved on.

That statement, of course, isn’t a true reflection of my innermost desires about being independent from money (I have other dreams… being the teacher I’ve been training to be, studying literature more deeply, learning to create beautiful things… ), but it is an accurate statement about my needs at that moment.

I needed a day off. A day to restore order, to create order in our new home.

So that’s what I’ve been doing this week. And my, it feels nice.

Hello, again, world!


(AND…Next week, I begin twelve intense weeks student teaching in an elementary Structured Learning Classroom. I’m anxious and excited!)


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